Loss of Control

Why can't I let it go!!!!!

I was brought into am meeting yesterday, where the team had decided it was better to go in one direction then another. The decision of the team doesn't feel like the best approach BUT at this point I'm not sure it matters much anyway.

If we went with the plan we had made last Friday this wouldn't even be an issue, the problem would probably be all over by know, but they wanted to go in a different direction and have spent the past couple of days deciding on this new direction. In either case what's done is done and most of the damage done by not taking the “other” direction has already been done.

All I was able to convince the team to do was to raise the possible risk that taking on this plan may delay the current release. The team is committed to working whatever overtime is necessary to get them back on track and believe this is the best option. Regardless of whether it goes against my better judgement.

Three paragraphs later and this isn't really what bothers me. What bugs me was some of the comments made by the architect during yesterdays meeting, just as “It can't possibly delay the release!”, and if it impacts the critical chain will just assign more resources or work overtime.

I'm the god damned release coordinator not him and he has no right! To trivialize my work and the hard work and effort I put into it!!!  And now I'm up and I can't sleep because I keep mulling it over and over again in my mind, I can push it off but it keeps coming back to bite me in the ass. I may never get real respect from this man. I mean at least he made statements that I was right and stopped making the comments after a bit, but I don't want it to happen again in today's team meeting

So I need to approach him calmly and discuss it but I don't feel calm I am nervous about the whole situation

So if E+R = OS, then what is my R?.. obviously it's not to put him down or make him feel guilty for undermining my role on the team. I want an outcome where when I make a statement that if he has concerns or disagrees that we discuss them 1 on 1 or with Jennifer or with my director or whoever but it is just not acceptable for it to be said in a team or mixed session with other analysts.

So here we are again, potentially facing an another impossible release all over again and I sit and evaluate my choices and lessons learned and need to decide what how I am going to respond. At this point I don't know whether or not it's all going to work about, but I do have full confidence in the teams ability to deliver and do whatever is required to make the right outcomes.

We are raising a risk of possible delays due to this decision made yesterday, so the client will be aware of the possible outcome. We are making the best long term decision for the login screen and all we can do now is wait and see how it goes.