Authentic Me (Sept 25, 2019)

Today is Sept 25, 2018

It takes work to apply EROS, to listen to others, to try and understand others.

But this doesn’t appear to be work for everyone

Some appear to come by it easily, either without thinking but simply re-acting automatically

For me, I have to ‘hold’ my automatic reaction and replace it with a CHOICE.

If I am the programmer – then I make the CHOICES, but making the CHOICES requires a lot of EFFORT on my part,

So who is the real me? - Is it the me making conscious choices of how I want to live my life, or is somehow the automatic / negative me the ‘real’ me and the person making the conscious choices some ‘fake version of me’

One thing I am confident in – The parts of my personality that are funny, that are helpful, that CARE, these parts ARE THE REAL ME. When I write code or have a conversation with others, I ‘put’ stuff in their that is uniquely me, sort of my ‘personality signature’ and I know they are me because they feel natural, unscripted and in line with my heart.

The ‘problem’ is that in order for people to see the “real” me, I have to make conscious choices about how I re-act to others, and within each choice I have the opportunity to add the spices that are uniquely authentic me.

The person who looks at things negatively, the person who believes myself ‘better’ then someone else. Neither of these are truly me, but they are what may come off to others when I am not making conscious choices.

Also when I am choosing my life not only am I more effective at showing the real me, I am also more effective at gaining, reaching, becoming closer to my goals.

The work is tiring, and will likely always be tiring, choosing the live the life I want to live, is hard work.

And success requires hard work.

At the end of the day, when I view others as successful, I judge them (or admire them) by their seemingly automatic traits which get them things, but that doesn’t mean they see themselves as successful, or even see their traits as ‘automatic’ it’s just a perception I have.

When we change the way we look at things – the things we look at change!